Post by Faith on Mar 30, 2005 23:36:16 GMT -5
Well I am new here, and see that I am alone!
There are so many of us that are going through this nightmare of w/d from Benzo. I know one thing for sure is that I for one will NEVER abuse benzos again as long as I live!!
One thing right now is that I feel like I am going to have trouble breathing. That has got to be the scariest part of the w/d as when you can't breath nothing else matters.
So that being said, I am sure we all know the horrible moment by moment anxiety, fear, panic, and pain that comes along with benzo withdrawal.
The screwed up thing about it is that valium and all benzos do not mix well with Methadone, knowing that really made the withdrawals I was in worse. As the clinic knew what to do when he found out I was in benzo w/d. He put me back on Valium and said to take as much as I need to stabelize, but in the same breath he said that the Valium and Mathadone don't mix well. SO being paranoid that I was/am in during w/d I freaked out after each time I took a valium that he told me to take. I wound up stabelizing a bit on 2 a day when he said to start by trying 3 a day. I think that fear really helped me keep it down to 2 a day. I thought the BAD MIX was going to kill me, in my sick mind!
That's what the w/d do make you scared of everything.
The doctor had a funny guilty sort of laugh when I looked pittyful and told him how scared was of dying from mixing the Valium with the Meth, he said that he would never have given me anything that he thought would hurt me, that at 60mg (at that time) and 2 valium 5mg a day the doses were so low that I would be fine. Then he said "I really scared you hey?" I just stared at him sort of mad.
He probably thought that I was going to overdose myself if he didn't scare me, but nuts being in benzo w/d is like a bad acid trip. Yes I was scared! I really have high hopes that now that I am at 1.25 mg a day I will do well, am going to keep breaking tese pills down till I am down to 1/26 of a pill a day! lmao
I have to as I am NOT going to go through withdrawal anymore!! As little as possible anyways! The moment by moment agony is too much!
There are so many of us that are going through this nightmare of w/d from Benzo. I know one thing for sure is that I for one will NEVER abuse benzos again as long as I live!!
One thing right now is that I feel like I am going to have trouble breathing. That has got to be the scariest part of the w/d as when you can't breath nothing else matters.
So that being said, I am sure we all know the horrible moment by moment anxiety, fear, panic, and pain that comes along with benzo withdrawal.
The screwed up thing about it is that valium and all benzos do not mix well with Methadone, knowing that really made the withdrawals I was in worse. As the clinic knew what to do when he found out I was in benzo w/d. He put me back on Valium and said to take as much as I need to stabelize, but in the same breath he said that the Valium and Mathadone don't mix well. SO being paranoid that I was/am in during w/d I freaked out after each time I took a valium that he told me to take. I wound up stabelizing a bit on 2 a day when he said to start by trying 3 a day. I think that fear really helped me keep it down to 2 a day. I thought the BAD MIX was going to kill me, in my sick mind!
That's what the w/d do make you scared of everything.
The doctor had a funny guilty sort of laugh when I looked pittyful and told him how scared was of dying from mixing the Valium with the Meth, he said that he would never have given me anything that he thought would hurt me, that at 60mg (at that time) and 2 valium 5mg a day the doses were so low that I would be fine. Then he said "I really scared you hey?" I just stared at him sort of mad.
He probably thought that I was going to overdose myself if he didn't scare me, but nuts being in benzo w/d is like a bad acid trip. Yes I was scared! I really have high hopes that now that I am at 1.25 mg a day I will do well, am going to keep breaking tese pills down till I am down to 1/26 of a pill a day! lmao
I have to as I am NOT going to go through withdrawal anymore!! As little as possible anyways! The moment by moment agony is too much!
